|"Guardian" | Amalgamations of Peter Paul|
I've been putting off blogging for quite sometime now. With all the chaos that's been going on, I can't hold anything in my head for more than 2 seconds.
There are times when I just want to go and run away somewhere far where nobody knows me.
But there's no escaping heartache. I am human too, and no matter how many things I do to occupy my mind, this feeling of loneliness is always going to haunt me no matter where I go, no matter how I try to pretend I'm okay.
Appa has been an angel. I've said it several times, he's the only stable relationship I ever had, and he's the one keeping me sane these days.
Yesterday, I spent the whole day with only this on my playlist.
Thank you, Alanis.
And thank you, God.
In times I feel most vulnerable, you always send something to remind me You're there and that I'm not alone. But this solitary world becomes just too unbearable sometimes that even crying becomes a blissful solitude.
Is this all the journey I have in life? I know everybody's telling me to trust You every time doubt creeps in, but I feel like my time is running out, and I can't seem to hold on to that happiness. Surely, there's something greater for me, isn't there? Please show me, before I lose all the good I have left in me.